Alas, date night!

The first weekend Sir and I have had off together in months--and luck was not on our side. Sir felt sick on Friday, and I had some sort of horrific stomach ailment Saturday and Sunday. I thought I was going to have to go the hospital for appendicitis. So after spending 14 hours in bed between Saturday and Sunday, complete with agonizing stomach pain and fever and chills, I was not in the mood (or physically capable) of sexy time. Sad face. I couldn't even stand up straight until yesterday. Ugh.

Still waiting on the results of my bloodwork a couple weeks ago. Hopefully it comes soon, with a new prescription, because I only have 6 days of my Synthroid left. Also, it would be nice to know what is going on. Good news--I had nearly $700 of tests done, and as of right now, I only have to pay $20. Nice! I was so worried I was going to bankrupt us.

On the health front, I need to eat more fiber. Sir and I think that might be why I was so sick this weekend.

I feel like I'm being a terrible submissive lately. I overthink everything and then nothing ends up getting done. This weekend was a total waste, since I was in agony for most of it. I got nothing done around the house and haven't really worked out in a couple days. I still don't feel 100% better, so I skipped the gym again today. I'm hoping to go tomorrow.

Sir has set a new goal for this week. We must have something fiber-full at every dinner. This mostly means more vegetables. Vegetables are expensive, which is annoying. They literally grow on trees, or bushes, or in the ground. Whatever. They should be cheaper!!

On the sexy time front, Sir and I are probably going to watch Secretary with Maggie Gyllenhall this evening. We were supposed to watch it this weekend, but with me sleeping for most of it, that didn't happen. I'm trying to make up for it (I know getting sick isn't my fault, but I still feel bad) by cleaning up the house and getting things taken care of that have been on the list for a while. So far, I have dusted, scrubbed the kitchen, put away dishes, loaded and unloaded the dishwasher, vacuumed the whole house, cleaned up the office, and made the menu and shopping list for this week. I still need to actually get off my butt and get cleaned up and go shopping for groceries. Getting a load of laundry done would be nice as well.

I also researched some stuff for our vacation this fall. I found a bunch of places to stay and tons to do. Its going to be interesting going on vacation with the in-laws. We've never done this before, and I don't know what to expect. I'm sure it will be fun though.

My goals this week:
Go to the gym Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. NO EXCUSES.
Get enough sleep. Remember the bedtime ritual.
Stop drinking coffee every morning. Have orange juice sometimes. See if this helps stop migraines.
Apply for two jobs by Saturday.

Always his,
HLA

Reflecting on my Goals

Monday is going to be my new day for reflection on my goals. I am going to work on thinking about it as reflecting on them, rather than passing or failing. With that in mind, I am refining them and making them more streamlined.

General:

• Try not to trash the kitchen while cooking. Sir cleans up after I cook (because he wants to) and I should make it easier for him. Clean as I go.
• Do not be bitchy for no apparent reason. Do not take bitchiness out on Sir.
• Spend less time on electronic devices.
• Blog once a day (at least).
• Prep Sir's coffee each night before bed. *ritual*

Health/Well-being:

• Go to gym every day, unless closed or work schedule prevents it.
• Take vitamins every day.
• One snack allowed each day. (I have a problem with grazing. I also have hypothyroidism and trouble losing weight. I also really like food.)
• Add more vegetables and fruits to diet.
• Make an effort to vary the weekly menu.
• Weight loss goal: get my BMI to the outer edge of the healthy category. Lose 30 pounds of fat, as per the gym device that measures fat.

Finances:

• Go through all weekly ads to find best prices on food for the week.
• Buy lunch out at work no more than once per week. PLAN AHEAD!
• Go through weekly coupons and remember to use them.
• Keep the checkbook updated.

Personal:

• Shave/trim as needed.
• Wear skirts more often. Start at once a week.
• Get up with Sir on days I work and make us a good breakfast.
• Continue learning about D/s and be more open with Sir about what I want/think he would enjoy.

Along with the coffee, I am adding two more rituals to my daily list. One is to find and use the rubber band method to keep myself from saying the F word and from being super depressed about my abysmal job. Ritual 2 is a bedtime ritual. I will allow 30 minutes prior to me hopefully being asleep to brush my teeth, using floss and mouthwash, wash my face, apply night cream (trying to fade scars on my easily scarring face), and read (if time allows). Before beginning this, I will prep the coffee maker and start filtering the water. Just before reading/getting into bed, I will finish coffee prep.


Other things going on this week: I should be getting my blood test results back from my doctor about my thyroid, possibly increasing my Synthroid dosage, figuring out any other vitamin deficiencies, and generally getting my health in some kind of order. I asked off for the vacation Sir and I are taking with his parents this autumn, and have decided to stop going to therapy. I think it has served its purpose and I really just need to FIND A NEW JOB!

On that note, I rewrote my resume and took it, along with the most recent cover letter I wrote, to my therapist for her opinion. She said everything looked great and I just need to keep putting out apps. So that is good news.

I am also plotting a date night for Sir this weekend. I haven't had a full weekend (Sat-Sun) off in months, so I am trying to figure out what to do for a nice, romantic, relaxing date night. Chocolate will be involved--possibly even eaten. Hahaha. I think a fancy dinner on our wedding china with a fancy dessert and a good movie will be a nice change for us. Now to do it as cheaply as possible---that will be the trick.

Always his,
HLA